Embarking and clarifying

I’m beginning my PhD and according to the affective domains of the RSD (Willison & O’Regan, 2015) I should be feeling “curious”. I am extremely curious about my topic, but these feelings are somewhat supplanted by feelings of insecurity… and also excitement.

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Willison & O’ Regan (2015). RSD7: Researcher Skill Development Framework. Retrieved from http://www.adelaide.edu.au/rsd/framework/rsd7/

I began telling people I was starting my PhD when I first applied to CSU in late 2015. However, for many of the people I told, it just brought up their own feelings about further study. I was told stories of never finishing, of sleepless nights, of having no social life. These stories didn’t dissuade me, but I did read studies like this that say you should keep your goals to yourself in order to achieve them… Had I made a mistake in telling people about my intentions? Eventually my mum posted an announcement on Facebook, so it’s all out in the open now. 🙂

My main feeling is that I want to know everything now. Apparently, before I went to primary school, I was really concerned that I didn’t already know how to read, and someone had to explain to me that school was where learning to read would occur. I have exactly the same feeling now. I have to be more patient.