A few days ago, I decided this blog had been dormant long enough, and I logged in to kill it off all together. This morning (December 31st), I woke up determined to revive it. Then I buggered around second guessing myself for a few hours.
This is exactly how the last few years have played out in terms of my PhD, my career choices and my social life. But I’m trying to be kinder to myself. I like to think about things deeply. I like to commit to things and then I also like to change my mind. This year, my motto has been: “Why not both?”
Why not end AND beginning? Why not #yay innovation AND I am a “neo-liberal pawn caught up in capitalist ideas about progress”? Why not critical interrogation AND participation?
I feel terrible about social media, and at the same time, I love it. I need you, my library people. But oh man, it makes me feel as if everything I think is wrong. This was the thing that made me feel the worst this year:
But ultimately, I think that’s ok. I can feel bad, and keep on going. In fact, I have to. But grit and resillience can get stuffed.